Plain white paper

I stare at a plain white paper. Oh it’s so smooth and beautiful. A sudden urge hits me as it does every time I stare at a plain paper to not let it be the way it is and carve something on it so I can leave my mark on it.

Is it okay to say that I have always wanted to leave my mark on this world; be it in a positive or negative way? I might have always wanted it to be in a positive way but perhaps I won’t let the opportunity go if I have a chance to leave my mark on this world in a negative way.

Leaving my mark on this world. I have always been unable to comprehend how one is supposed to do that. Perhaps, I would leave my mark here in the end when I am dead; the mark would be my dead body or in fact my grave. Or perhaps, I might do it by inspiring someone. But how do you inspire someone when you’re a mess yourself? Maybe I have already left my mark in someone’s heart or on someone’s mind. But I believe the old memories in your mind fade away as new memories come. It did strike me one day that maybe it is something that can only be possible in imaginations. Maybe someone would help me realise that I can’t and no one can.

I scribble my name on the plain white paper while feeling the satisfaction. It hit me harder than it should have, maybe because everything was right in front of me and I still didn’t realise. For all one knows, this might be the mark I will leave on this world.

Happiness

Happiness. It’s just a word given to an emotion. Nothing out of the ordinary. Most people yearn for happiness when they are sad, others are happy about being sad. But when you are truly happy, do you realise that this happiness won’t last long? Certainly not. Some people do realise it though and then they feel sad. Its pretty complicated if you think about it. 

There is one thing most people don’t realise. It is that you won’t feel happiness until you have felt sadness and vice versa. They say that after every sad times comes happy times, after every pain comes relief. But what if it is just another saying which has a whole lot on the inside. When you go through sad times which can be anything differing from person to person and the different kinds of pain we feel, you either realise what you have in life and start to be grateful for it hence you become happy or you happen to yearn for happiness and somehow you find it, in a person or a thing or something you do.But there is a part to it that no one talks about. It is that after happy times comes sad times. It is somewhat that you yearn sadness and you get it. But it can be that you have been happy for so long that when something goes slightly wrong you get upset. Anyhow, it is an ongoing cycle and there won’t be moments that you will not be happy or sad.

Everyone finds happiness in different things. Some might find it in having a lot of friends and others might find it in being alone. Some might find it in doing what they like-bicycling on the hill or late night long drives or reading a book with a cup of hot chocolate or travelling the world. But for one thing, happiness is not served on a plate to anyone. You have to search for it and find it but you can’t keep it treasured with you forever because at some point in your life you will experience sadness.

 

Peace

She sat by the deep blue sea, thinking maybe it was meant to be. The sea spoke to her soul, told her secrets of life which were not supposed to be told.The sea was where she really belonged, the fishes, the salt water and the voices of the sea was what made her heart melt.

She loved peace for tranquillity was in her veins but she was always struggling with her mind. She was a mixture of everything the universe had to offer, the best of paradoxes which no one seemed to understand. She had lost people who she used to find solace in, maybe that’s why she was losing the war with her mind.

Sitting by the shore, with water touching her feet, her attention was caught by a tattoo on her ankle which said, ‘This too shall pass’